Struggle

Struggle is a part of life

We exist, we communicate, we struggle

A mom has no money

A child has no food

A family has no home...struggle

The student doesn't understand

The teacher no longer cares

A boyfriend looks on in question

A girlfriend watches in fright

Struggle

We struggle with different things

We do it in different ways

Love, Life

Joy, Pain

STRUGGLE

New Chapters in Life

It is always exciting to start new chapters or section in life.  I am starting a new type of job and I am extremely excited about the new experiences.  However, jugglung the three classes that I am doing has been more than a little interesting.  I have been focused on gathering information for my informative paper and it really has me psyched to write everything down.

I do want to freewrite a poem right now though and so I will:

It is evening time and I am tired
The house is quite, there is no one around
The lights are low and mood is somber
I enjoy the absence of all sound
It isn't often that I do not know
Exactly what is happening in my head
In the silence I sit and listen
I want to sing but I hear instead
Small thoughts coming in form the distance
Little things I thought were long gone
I can smile as let them in slowly
I know this won't last very long...............Goodnight!!!

Travel and the Online Student

Hello all,

Once upon a time I was a naive woman entering the uncertain world of online learning.  I thought that since my classroom could travel with me that I could travel whenever I wanted to.  Recently I embarked on a trip to the beautiful island of Jamaica to bury my father.  Now every was going very well as my home had internet access and I could work with ease.  I spent two weeks there and then came time for me to come back home.  I figured since I was returning to the US that I would have no issues making the transition back to my normal schedule, boy was I wrong!!!  The first night back home I got nothing done because both myself and my son were exhausted.

Side Story:  To get to Jamaica on the short notice, I had to fly from Houston to Atlanta and spend the night. I got up early the next morning to fly to Fort Lauderdale, waited for 5 hours on my connecting flight that took me to Kingston, Jamaica.  Did I mention I did all of this with a 14 month old baby???  Well, except for the 5 hour wait time, which dwindled to 1, I did the same thing to ge tback to Houston...ugh!!!

Anyway, after a good nights sleep I woke up the nest day ready to get my work done.  I booted up my computer only to find out that the internet was down.  No problem I thought, I would just call to get it sorted out right? WRONG!  We have Vonage for our home phone and everyone knows that no internet = no vonage!  So here I am with no home phone, no cell phone and no internet on a Monday.  My silver lining came this morning though, since I am here writing this blog...I am back!!! Wish me luck as I struggle to finish all my work, this is the last day of the Kaplan week...yikes!

I'm out of here til now....PEACE!

Online Learning

Before starting my Kaplan journey, I was very misguided as to the process of online learning.  I was under the impression that since I did not have to get up and drive to class that it would be easy sailing.  My first term did not do much to relieve me of those thoughts, and I continued with false confidence.  My second term got a little harder but since I had my textbooks with me for tests and I only have one live seminar per week I could still bluff my way through.  This term, I figured, "hey, I can take three classes after all how hard can it be?"  Boy was I wrong!!!  My son is older and far more active, I have a full time job and I still have to make time for three classes.  Classes which in an ironic twist of fate are of course more difficult.  I am no quitter though, and I will push through this and be triumphant.  At least at the end of the day I can proudly say, "I did it!"

My Thoughts

I wrote this on September 24, 2009...check it out




I sit by my window lost in thought unsure of what I'm feeling

Today was a failure and yesterday was a disappointment

I am afraid to contemplate my future

I am afraid to face my past

What is the point of opening the window, when I've used up all my doors?

Should I bother keeping the lamp even after the Genie is gone?

I try to understand all the mistakes I have made

I am struggling accept my place in the world I've created

Do I even have a right to lie in my bed of roses?

Is this even my garden? Or am I just trespassing?

I feel like a fish lost in the bowl

Swimming in circles, will I ever realize there is no way out?

It wasn't always this way

Things used to be different

There once was happiness and joy

There was celebration and freedom

Where did the darkness come from?

When did the rain set in?

I can go back and forth with the 'what if' and the 'how'

But I know there's no point, the verdict is in

I have relinquished control

I have given up the reins

I am controlled by a Higher Power now

And He holds my hand

Suddenly the clouds lift

The rain drifts away

My sun has come back

It is a brand new day...

Time

Am I the only one that notices the fact that the more you have to do is the faster the time moves?

Well I tell you...today was one of those days during which time seemed to take on a life of its own.  I woke up at the usual time, but between juggling my son, appointments and school work I feel as if I have been up for days.  As I sit here now preparing for an online seminar, everyone is out of the house and I feel a sense of peace that has eluded me for quite some time.  Every second counts, and time seems to have returned to the pace I've grown to know and love.

I don't know about you but I live for these stolen moments when I can sit, relax and just BE

Intro

Ok, so I have always considered starting a blog but never got around to it...now thanks to school I finally have one...YAY ME!!!

This should be quite interesting and loads of fun...I can't wait to see what is in store for me and my fellow College Composition bloggers...This should be quite the ride.

I do intend to extend my blog beyond school eventually, but for now...b-a-b-y--s-t-e-p-s LOL